4 of Wands reversed, Knight of Swords reversed, 5 of Pentacles

Picking up here where I left off, sort of.  Or at least picking up where I am.  Lots of topsy turvy and end over end sorts of feelings resulting in some stasis of action.  Sort of stuck in want of inspiration in regards to a direction...

I suppose I shall beware of family that makes one feel left out and un-necessary.  Or perhaps the negative feelings arise from attempting to incorporate things that should just be left alone and by themselves, namely ME.  

The Devil, 2 of Cups reversed, 10 of Wands

With the 2 of pentacles popping out almost immediately during the shuffle.  Woke up this mornin' with those walking blues, but I wasn't walking nowhere because I didn't have no legs!  Mama's alright now, cause I got a degree!

What's with all of this mumbo jumbo anyway?  The cards would say that I am being torn in half by my gemini nature.  They would remind me that it's important to remember that whatever I think is the most important thing in the world, and start doing with all of my everything will very soon become the exact opposite.  The juggler can't hold his balls!  Gotta keep flinging them up and around, ya know.

Since that moment this morning, so early as to still feel like last night, really, I have attacked all of those things that I have thought needed doing but for whatever reason have not been done.  Namely, trying to get the scouts to yoga, trying to get the girls to yoga, trying to live up to the scout leader Thelma would expect me to be (happy birthday Grandma!), easy stuff.  yeah.

I am listening to these Phish shows from UIC.  The ones that happened while the family was adventuring out west.  During the opening few tunes all I could think about was our time at Bell Rock with Ella, screaming that this was JUST NOT INTERESTING!  But my next thought is of course, that while those particular moments could be gladly interchanged there is a whole lot of other moments that could not.

5 of Pentacles reversed, Queen of Cups, 4 of Wands reversed

Adventure bound and just a tad wound up about it.  Also wishing the weather would clear up and maybe turn hot before the actual first day of summer.  Wishful thinking, I know.

Reading and knitting and 15 sun salutations is what is on the agenda today.  Oh yes, and running the show for tomorrow.



kin 173: Red Self-Existing Skywalker 
I Define in order to Explore 
Measuring Wakefullness 
I seal the Output of Space 
With the Self-Existing tone of Form 
I am guided by the power of Universal Water 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

6 of Pentacles reversed, 6 of Wands reversed, 5 of Pentacles

Fear.  The cause and effect of all problems.  At least, mine anyway.  The trick is figuring out what it is afraid of, as it generally is something quite silly.



kin 169: Red Cosmic Moon 
I Endure in order to Purify 
Transcending Flow 
I seal the Process of Universal Water 
With the Cosmic tone of Presence 
I am guided by the power of Space 

5 of Swords reversed, King of Wands reversed, 4 of Swords

Balance is difficult, especially balancing a triangle, especially when lack of balance causes crashing.  And crankiness.  Perhaps today is the day when we start our home school funk studies.  If that doesn't shake out the crankies I don't know what will.



kin 166: White Planetary World-Bridger 
I Perfect in order to Equalize 
Producing Opportunity 
I seal the Store of Death 
With the Planetary tone of Manifestation 
I am guided by the power of Timelessness 

5 of Swords reversed, The Chariot, 4 of Wands

This spring has had no shortage of garter snakes, which is not odd.  The odd part comes in when I can sense a snake in the vicinity before I see it with my eyes, can someone please explain how that works to me?

Our summer vacation has gotten off to a flying start.  Both girls have gotten started on their work without any sort of difficulties and I have too.  We will do our best to get some good work done each morning so that we can play for the rest of the day.



kin 165: Red Solar Serpent 
I Pulse in order to Survive 
Realizing Instinct 
I seal the Store of Life Force 
With the Solar tone of Intention 
I am guided by the power of Birth 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

Wheel, Ace of Pentacles, Justice reversed

Last Day of School!  I am more excited that the girls, they are scared of change.  Ella especially is very comfortable in Kindergarten and would really rather not have to go to first grade next year.  I am looking forward to a summer of reading and softball, maybe some biking and some swimming and more reading.  Maybe a little pinano...



kin 164: Yellow Galactic Seed 
I Harmonize in order to Target 
Modeling Awareness 
I seal the Input of Flowering 
With the Galactic tone of Integrity 
I am guided by the power of Elegance