eff you man

so last night i got a text message at 7 saying something along the lines of "free beer catching a ride leaving now" which I did not respond to because it is just wrong on all of the levels. Then it was almost 9:00 before he actually walked through the door, or it might have been just past. It was a lot late.

I'm incredulous that I had to hear about him having to come home early for me to have band practice. I believe I shall have band practice every thursday from now until forever, and he shall come home and do kid duty, and then maybe I'll go to the jazz society meetings which are also on thursday evening and which I have never yet made it to. Yes, that will be the plan.

Yesterday I was reading about Tito Puente's latin record and how it was this mob guy's favorite kind of music so that's why it got made, and then the podcast player decided to play the tito puente jazz profiles podcast where he talked about how he had to make that record in the middle of the night and he felt very fortunate that the record company let him make it at all. And then I was reading something about the coasters and was drawn to look up the lead singer guy for some reason and turns out he's from Kansas, oh and Bob Syrup also did some time in Kansas in the 80's which is when I was also there. And Then I was listening to the terrence podcast and he was talking about how everyone needs to take their psychedelic medicine right now because it's the only catalyst of gnosis that will work.

Somebody snipped my blanket. No one will fess up. I am leaning towards Ella but I cannot be certain. Abbey was fevered that night and might not remember doing it. It's just the tiniest little snip. I tied a knot in it right away when I found it and it will have another part attached to it so I can re-inforce it again there. Whoever did it made just the tiniest little snip and didn't pull it, I think she knew she had been very naughty. I am sad that somebody is lying to me.

Cue Lightbulb

I've always been a little confused about the nature of our soul, and the process of re-incarnation, and how does it work when the population of the world keeps getting bigger but we have only a certain number of souls so there must be a disparity there, right? Maybe? And then yesterday I was reading my Daniel Pinchbeck book and he was talking about how there are some who believe that we are born without a soul and must earn it. Which sort of makes sense to me, although I would like to know how re-incarnation works in that situation, but perhaps some are born ensouled while others are not just because there aren't enough to go around. So perhaps we each build our soul over our various lifetimes but there is always that first life where you come in empty... This is making even less sense now than before so I must go do more research.

the wheel with the seven of pentacles. oposing cards, one means action and one means reflection after action. so I think I'll lay down some more bass tracks and then forget about it for awhile. But not until it gets a touch warmer down here, brrrrrrr.

yesterdays cards were appropriate, I find the recording process tedious to say the least especially when I'm the one hitting the record button. and crawling around with wires in my mouth. who wants to do that? bugs, that's who. yes I just compared recording people to bugs. steppy steppy

it's almost time to order the new bass... gotta wait for just a little more spring.

7 and 9 of wands today, which means that I shall meet with some resistance. The nightmares arrived at 3 am and it involved abbey being stuck outside on the porch. horrid.

So I did most of that stuff yesterday except for the groceries, and I have the audio interface thingy hooked up and working so now I just need to lay down some tracks and submit them. I'm not sure what to play but I think I'll just play a lot of stuff and whittle it down.

My brothers first girl friend was a twin. She and her brother were adopted because their mother was raped. I just learned that her brother was killed in the line of duty while trying to save a hostage. He didn't save her. And he died to. What a weird circle he had.

9 of swords and the magician. Nightmares and magic. Shall I use the magic to quell the nightmares? I'm not having nightmares... I guess I need to guard against them. I still am not sure what yesterday's cards mean either, but I did try to not act contrary to them all day so maybe I didn't get flattened by them.

I have a plane ticket to fly to the west coast in may.

I have tickets to see phish in june

today I plan to go to the grocery and the library and swimming lessons. And do yoga and practice some bass AND cello and also record something.

king of wands and judgement. I have no idea, all there is to do today is ballet; those are very action and interaction oriented cards but I see no one but the girlz today. and the ballet people. USUALLY

yesterdays cards were right, though, I had to bang my head against the mumsie wall but since I knew to just hang with it I didn't get all frustrated.

need to talk to gilmore about deer creek...

ace of pentacles and the hanged man. either I'm teaching a piano lesson this morning and then going off to mumsie's or I need to do lots of yoga if I want to make money?

The life without the computer was actually really quite nice so I've made a point of starting my day the way I did then rather than coming down here right off the bat first thing. Funny how hard that is for me...

I am teaching a new student today, I hope we can connect and get some trust going because she is little and that is all we will do for awhile I think.

I'm working on my Mockingbird transcription again, but I am feeling thwarted by my lack of interest in the technology. I need to find a nice clean copy and stick it in the computer so I can slow it down just a tad. Then I want to fix up hydrogen and then maybe do dog faced boy. Other projects include figuring out a mashup of walk on the wild side with howl with god bless the child. I think those are the 3 things I want to use but I need to get into it and see how it would really work or not.

and then there is the mitten! of course now that I have a lot of other fun stuff the knitting gets super fabulously fun. ain't it always they way?