ha ha ha ha

Much better today, Queen of Pentacles and 7 of Pentacles. So many pentacles this week. It's funny, pulling scary tarot cards makes me do yoga pronto and it always seems to fix the problem. For all of the scary cards, though, yesterday was an easy day. No screaming or crying until right there at the end.

Abbey and Ella have this imaginary game that they play call "Danielle and Shoatza" where Abbey is Danielle and Ella is Shoatza and they have adventures. It is funny.

Oh yeah, that reminds me of my awesome book that I was reading but now have finished. It would seem that the point and purpose of this life is to make beautiful experiences and laugh a lot. All of the other stuff that seems so necessary just isn't. We are blessed to be in 3-d because this is the only dimension where there is actual physical experience. Even though it sort of hurts sometimes, and sometimes a lot, that's the trade off.



----------------
Now playing: Beastie Boys - Body Movin'
via FoxyTunes

chaos, disorder, delusion and confusion

Queen of Cups reversed and 5 of Pentacles reversed. Sometimes it's not really that fun to play with these things. Dishonorable and depraved with creative forces lurching out of control, along with chaos, disorder, delusion and confusion. woohoo. I get that 5 of pents a lot, right side up and upside down.

Abbey was up and at em early this morning to go to running club. There was a Daisy meeting last evening. I'm glad that Abbey likes to go but it is a group that I am having a hard time finding a fit with. It just seems like a lot of stuff is falling through the cracks. I suppose I should just offer to help more, but I find myself fairly highly irritated by these folks and am concerned that I might let some of that out of the cage if I spend too much time with them.

chaos, disorder, delusion and confusion

----------------
Now playing: Wilco - Heavy Metal Drummer
via FoxyTunes

Dear Phish - Thank you for the list of kick ass albums to check out or give a re-listen to. This Kiss stuff? sucks. Thank you good bye

When I think of Kiss I am reminded of Tito Espinoza from Kindergarten who loved Kiss and also loved kicking cute girls in the shins. He would use his heel to dig the Kiss symbol in the sand and then chase some poor girl over and kick her by it. yay!

Yesterday I drew Temperance and the Hierophant. We had been to a wedding the night before where I had too much wine. And then I was off to a rehearsal with a guy that we hired to come in and give us tips and pointers. I love when the cards are so obvious and easy.

Today I drew the World and the 5 of Swords. Perhaps I need to make everything into a fun game and I'll, like, win or something. I do not think that is the point...

----------------
Now playing: Kiss - Hard Luck Woman (Live)
via FoxyTunes

Hmmm, 4 of Swords Reversed and the Tower. Weird, what can this mean? The 4's are usually structure of some sort, which relates to the tower, but to have them reversed means the structure is altered? The card showed the princess sleeping on her tower of mattresses with that little pea giving her so much grief. The tower is the highest level card that I seem to get more than once in a blue moon, and I am always befuddled by it's warnings of conforming to the surface pursuits of life. Hmmm. Perhaps the events of the day will bring some insight.

Missed yoga again this week, I am getting antsy to start my moon as she is several days late and this is not the usual at all. This harvest moon is also my conceiving moon so perhaps my world is just reminiscing or something, but I might explode if something doesn't rectify soonish.

Ella is snuffled. Poor little Ella. I dreamed last night that I was hooked up to the flu meter, and the line that indicated flu was right in the center while my peg was just underneath it. I do not feel out of sorts except for my tardy friend but maybe I am fighting something.

It is 1985 on flashback, I am curious.

Today's cards: 10 of Pentacles and Ace of Cups. The 10 of pentacles is a lot like our little house here. There is magic oozing from every crevice but it isn't always perceived. The ace of cups came after I pulled death while looking at Ella. I had to put that one back and try again so the cups with their accepting everything message was appropriate I suppose.

I had a fun time with my parents and at the concert last night. I didn't realize how nervous I was that they would be bored with the stuff that wasn't my part but it turned out to be the percussion ensemble which is quite good and always interesting and then 2 choirs that Abbey liked. And even my part was judged not toooooo boring. We got to come up on the riser and I had to quick plug the amps in and then play which was a little tricky. I was glad there were no horrendous injuries, stages are fucking dangerous if you ask me.

Off to take little Ella to school, she is snuffly but she wants to go.

----------------
Now playing: Phish - Guantanamo Strut
via FoxyTunes

Queen of Rods and Justice reversed. Amazingly I had pulled justice reversed first but I put it back because I didn't want to think about that today, but then when it came up again I stopped blocking it. Starting with the Queen, Rods is my favorite and the one that I most self identify with, so when I pull it it is usually me. I'm not so sure today, though, I think it is just the essence of the rods as is applies to me. I was worried about the justice reversed because I thought it would analyze out as me being unfair but after sitting with it for a minute I do not think so. This morning I got up at my usual time to get Abbey ready for school. John took the day off because he is helping me with my concert later. He was still lying in bed at 8 when Ella decided to watch a show and since I was getting ready to start practicing I didn't see why he couldn't go lie around downstairs with Ella and her show while I got some work done. No stomping around necessary, really. So rather than me being unfair it was unfairness happening to me, which is often a problem for me to distinguish right off the bat.

And now it's time for music class
----------------
Now playing: Joni Mitchell - Coyote
via FoxyTunes

How things are

3 of wands and 3 of pentacles reversed. Lots of 3's. I had a dream last night that John and I were in a riverside bunker with some unknown people while the kids played outside. Next thing I knew the river was raging more than any river I have ever seen, it had covered our bunker and was crashing and bashing like the wave exhibit at the zoo and I knew that there was no way that anyone outside could still be there. Then I woke up. So, what is this water and why is it sweeping away my family?

I have been going through our stacks of CD's that do not have cases and are living in spindles, discs that have no artist information and maybe a title but definitely no track listing. If they look interesting I have been loading them onto our new storage device which holds a terrabyte of information. I have found a lot of great music that I have not heard very much if at all and made it accessible with all of the pertinent info at my fingertips since it is all on the computer. I am not intending to put my whole music collection on this thing, a terrabyte is not nearly enough space to attempt a project like that plus stuff that is filed or has a case and can be filed in the shelf should be. I just want to be able to find and listen to anything in particular as well as hit the shuffle button and learn new things. Then yesterday I was informed that I am stupid for doing this because now that data is duplicated?! First of all, I am not stupid. Secondly, this music is now being listened to whereas before it was sitting in a spindle collecting dust up on top of a shelf where I had to get a steppy stool to get at it. If having duplicate data is such a problem than just pitch the spindle, otherwise it can live up on it's shelf forever for all I care.

Yeah. It's working for me.

----------------
Now playing: Art Blakey - Abdallah's Delight
via FoxyTunes

Today's cards - 3 of Swords and the Empress. I can already relate them both to this morning and last evening. The 3 of Swords is a familiar sorrow, that I am learning to accept and integrate in order to move past. This particular manifestation had to do with being screamed at like I was a child in front of my children by my partner who is supposed to be rather more partnery than that if you ask me. I am actively working to address this issue, though, by trying to only respond calmly to the screaming, although that can be tough sometimes. The Empress is also a common emotion in this part of my life where I have small people around all the time who could be considered subjects I suppose. I do not really like to think of them like that, but they do need guidance and lots of help with stuff so in that way it is apt.

I'm having so much fun playing with the new computer I have been neglecting my other projects but having a little break from them feels OK too.

I am patiently waiting for my DVD of Genitalio, and I have 2 transcriptions to work out but still 2 weeks before they are needed. There is a big band gig and cd recording upcoming as well as a small band gig which earns scratch. There is the Matt and Dirk at Matt's Church thing, possibly Fodfest with Anne and some appearances at Border's mixed in. Idiom is still on track to open for Macabre on Dec. 26. Brutal.



----------------
Now playing: Miles Davis - He Loved Him Madly
via FoxyTunes

Playing in the band

Got together last night with Cheryl the guitar player to work on some tunes. I'm always torn when it comes to how much I can let the kids participate during band practice. Cheryl was awesome at getting them to use their little percussion instruments on 2 and 4, but then Abbey decided she'd tickle the keys a little and that just won't do. Extra percussion is always welcome but atonal piano during A Train? sorry dabbers...

I have a new tarot book, 2 actually, because I've decided that it would be fun to refine my already hopping intuition. I'd like to learn to focus and understand more easily. Inwardly AND outwardly.