kin 88: Yellow Planetary Star
I Perfect in order to Beautify
Producing Art
I seal the Store of Elegance
With the Planetary tone of Manifestation
I am guided by the power of Intelligence
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

10 of cups reversed, the chariot and the page of swords reversed.  I am currently feeling incredibly out of sorts, it started yesterday and is continuing into today, although it really feels like it has been building for some time.  Yesterday, when I noticed the drunkening about to begin I am proud of myself for saying something, that usually when it is cheap vodka and red juice that bad things happen later and lo and behold, my grandpa's wrought iron music stand was bumped HARD and gouged the shit outta my grandma's piano.  Of course, it is my fault for leaving the music stand, what, out?  it's a piece of furniture as far as I am concerned and it was set aside where it is always set aside.  If someone wasn't drunk as a fucking skunk and blathering about perhaps they would not have bumped the stand so hard as to send it bashing into the piano.  I did not have this conversation last evening while the drunkening was still in effect and I unfortunately did not feel up to it this morning because of the headache and now the drunkening has started again so I am SOL on this one I guess.  Although I am sure another learning moment is on it's way, hopefully I can ensnare it a little better this time.

kin 87: Blue Solar Hand
I Pulse in order to Know
Realizing Healing
I seal the Store of Accomplishment
With the Solar tone of Intention
I am guided by the power of Abundance

7 of wands, 9 of cups and 9 of pentacles all reversed.  The horoscope is saying that I should be feeling a little more benevolent towards my people.  Hopefully the 7 of wands signifies an end to the hostility that erupts from my brain.  the 9 of cups is always a little confusing but the 9 of pentacles is not nearly so confusing, although I do not know if I am relating to the giver or the givee. 



kin 86: White Galactic World-Bridger
I Harmonize in order to Equalize
Modeling Opportunity
I seal the Store of Death
With the Galactic tone of Integrity
I am guided by the power of Heart

2 of pentacles reversed, ace of pentacles and the king of swords reversed.  Amazingly my turmoil from yesterday seems all smoothed over.  We are finally all set with the washing machine and the dryer both working so I can finally get to the laundry that has been piling up for the past week and a half.  I am anxiously awaiting my next yarn delivery so that I might start that project.  I am also anxiously awaiting the moment when I can turn it up and start working on my funk u stuff.  woo



kin 85: Red Resonant Serpent
I Channel in order to Survive
Inspiring Instinct
I seal the Store of Life Force
With the Resonant tone of Attunement
I am guided by the power of Navigation
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

Lessons of my life 1 fucking A is that without these wonderful beautiful chilluns I don't think I would have ever felt the drive that I needed to feel to actually succeed in actuating my dreams of life with music, but the catch 22 is the extreme and utter frustration that I feel in having absolutely no time to myself to work, and by no time to myself I mean that when I try to work I am almost every single time ripped away from my concentration by these same beautiful and wonderful chilluns.  It is so maddening.  It's not like they mean it or even that they aren't trying but it is just impossible to expect them to get it.  And there I am, sitting between this rock of really wanting with every fiber of my being to be exploring and working and the hard place of really wanting with every fiber of my being to do my best for these beautiful and wonderful chilluns.  Does it have to always result in such massive frustration?  And for cards today we get the page of cups reversed, the lovers reversed and the empress reversed.  So I shall do my best to accept these roles and their importance and just try and quash my feelings of frustration about not being able to work right now.  wooo  <-- sarcasm, that.




kin 84: Yellow Rhythmic Seed
I Organize in order to Target
Balancing Awareness
I seal the Input of Flowering
With the Rhythmic tone of Equality
I am guided by my own power doubled

8 of swords reversed, queen of cups and the knight of wands.  something's gotta give with this crankiness!  I just can't seem to shake it, and it feels absolutely wretched.  It seems like everyone is having these huge life engulfing problems, meanwhile I just wanna have some time to myself.  I love my girls to death but the endless litany of mama mama mama mama that simply does not stop no matter what I try to do, and if I take a break to close my eyes then there is the fighting, gah. 



kin 83: Blue Overtone Night
I Empower in order to Dream
Commanding Intuition
I seal the Input of Abundance
With the Overtone tone of Radiance
I am guided by the power of Magic

 5 of wands reversed, ace of wands and the 6 of swords.  The horoscope warned of irritation today and of direct action stemming from it being the only solution.  Last October or so I accepted an invitation to play a jam which is now almost exactly a month away.  It is too late for me to un accept this invitation.  I am not the sort of person who gives her word that I will be somewhere to play and then even considers backing out of that agreement for any reason short of illness or death.  It has been awhile now, since I turned my back on the green and accepted and declined invitations based on their musical worth alone and this gig is worth it's weight in gold on that front.  So I am not at all inclined to skip it and most certainly not because of poor financial planning.  This expense has been on the docket for several many months and I would have booked the room back in April had I had the liquidity for such an endeavor.  So I booked it this morning.  1 person non refundable.  I am going to play this fucking gig by my fucking self thank you very much because last evening while I was running late and out the door I was told that we cannot afford to book this room and that I would be expected to cancel out and not go.  It is at times like these when I wonder what the dollar amount of my husband's love affair with the alcohol molecule costs us daily?  weekly?  monthly?  yearly?  The costs can be measured in green money or they can be measured in the less definable units of respect.