King of Wands, Page of Pentacles reversed, 7 of Swords

It is hard not to worry about the sneaking around, I hope it is only a possible future outcome and that it can be avoided.

Yoga class was fun!



kin 206: White Spectral World-Bridger 
I Dissolve in order to Equalize 
Releasing Opportunity 
I seal the Store of Death 
With the Spectral tone of Liberation 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

4 of Swords reversed, The Sun, Queen of Swords reversed

Busy Day Busy Weekend.  Happy Planetary Serpent Day!




kin 205: Red Planetary Serpent 
I Perfect in order to Survive 
Producing Instinct 
I seal the Store of Life Force 
With the Planetary tone of Manifestation 
I am guided by the power of Space 
I am a polar kin    I extend the Red galactic spectrum.

3 of Wands reversed, Death reversed, 4 of Pentacles reversed

indicates one's responsibility for actions and decisions as they radiate effects unto "seven generations" in the future and, some say, even into the past.  Knowing how to die is the great secret of initiation.  And several warnings to watch out for "blockages".  I shall find some salad for lunch, I think.

I am about to abandon this whole wheat rye experiment, I made a grandma's rye yesterday and it is so much better than any of these recipes, it really is a waste of my fancy rye flour to make anything else.  I think I might change gears entirely and look at a different book for awhile...

Abbey and I are working on speaking positively.  I got a little note from her teacher with some tools to use at home, mostly just re-framing but isn't that the crux anyway?  I am glad that things are already heading out of the hole, otherwise this might have been another huge upset to my apple cart.

Ella is the master of getting my goat and abusing it mercilessly, I need to work hard on my own buttons in order to inactivate them for her.



kin 203: Blue Galactic Night 
I Harmonize in order to Dream 
Modeling Intuition 
I seal the Input of Abundance 
With the Galactic tone of Integrity 
I am guided by the power of Accomplishment 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

Page of Pentacles, 3 of Pentacles, 5 of Pentacles reversed

"You might apply for a job"

Materialization of the Sacred

"returning to work after joblessness"

Alrighty then, I shall speak to the people today about having this class at the rec center.  This morning will include a trip to the bank as well, to get that all straightened out.

My weirdo cycle is back to it's weirdo tricks, being either a week early, or exactly on time based on when it should have started last month.  WEIRD!  Better early than late, though.

Yoga!  Will I do this short form Ashtanga every day?  Or most every day?  It is hard to practice!

My new strings are so very nice, but I overdid it a bit with the fretboard oil and proceeded to have a headache for 3 days straight.  It didn't help any that it was another episode of Tales From a Suck Gig and the HVAC was out and defaulting to full on effing hot.  It had to be pushing 90 in there.



kin 202: White Resonant Wind 
I Channel in order to Communicate 
Inspiring Breath 
I seal the Input of Spirit 
With the Resonant tone of Attunement 
I am guided by the power of Timelessness 

Page of Pentacles reversed, Knight of Wands reversed, 3 of Pentacles reversed

The cards are warning of delayed travel, but I have no travel booked to delay.  I suppose I won't either, any time soon.  I can't say I understand what these cards are trying to say, although they have been popping up rather often.  Although I usually get it eventually...

The bread experiment goes on.  I have really like the last 2, the Peasant's rye and that other one, but they both were just a hair shy of overtaking the uber loaf in flavor or texture.  Today we have the Petaluma rye, which did not get the oven spring I was expecting.  I have not tasted it yet, I have learned with these whole wheat ryes that a day or two of sitting around can help the flavor to blossom.

The Daisy-ing is getting organized slowly but surely, we have acquired the uniforms and the books.  It is nice to watch the professional girl scouts do their thing, they are so planny and organized!



kin 201: Red Rhythmic Dragon 
I Organize in order to Nurture 
Balancing Being 
I seal the Input of Birth 
With the Rhythmic tone of Equality 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

the Sun, Knight of Cups, 6 of Cups

Sometimes these cards play tricks and jokes, and then sometimes they spell it out so succinctly and perfectly that it is impossible to continue to worry.  Just Relax, you're doing fine. Letting off steam
Weak, transient effect: This morning there is a real danger of needless disputes, irritability, emotionalism, rash action and hastiness, which may result in harm or inconvenience later. You will find it difficult to handle other people for awhile. One of the challenges now is to successfully let off steam without making an unnecessary shambles. If you frequently feel somewhat discouraged about yourself, you should be especially careful with this influence. You may see everything that comes your way as a threat and react much too defensively. If you have a bolder and more self-confident temperament, you may be inclined to act too quickly, to be hasty and overcritical of others. Or you may be accident prone. With this influence, you are not as careful as you should be, and you might hurt yourself.
Transit selected for today (by user): Moon Square Mars, , exact at 07:36   activity period from 24 October 2010 to 25 October 2010 Exhibit A - why I like astrology.  This is from my husband's chart, I was having some trepidation about his mood this morning.  He had gone on a rant about Scouts which was disturbing and disconcerting considering how much scouting I have been doing lately,  but after reading this I understand completely and am no longer a bit concerned.  He is doing the best he can.

kin 200: Yellow Overtone Sun 
I Empower in order to Enlighten 
Commanding Life 
I seal the Matrix of Universal Fire 
With the Overtone tone of Radiance 
I am guided by the power of Elegance 

Wheel of Fortune, 5 of Swords reversed, 3 of Cups reversed

I would call those cards an astute summation of my past 2 weeks.  The wheel is turning and you can't slow down, you can't let go and you can't hold on, you can't go back and you can't stand still, if the thunder doesn't get you then the lightening will.

It will be nice when the gloom and doom of the 5 of swords can lift just a bit.  At the very least the actions have been undertaken for movement, I hope.



kin 199: Blue Self-Existing Storm 
I Define in order to Catalyse 
Measuring Energy 
I seal the Matrix of Self-generation 
With the Self-Existing tone of Form 
I am guided by the power of Vision 

7 of Cups, 9 of Wands, 9 of Pentacles reversed

Intensified sensation of entrapment and a desire for freedom.  Possibly imaginary?  I am working to remove all sarcasm from my daily speech habits.



kin 197: Red Lunar Earth 
I Polarize in order to Evolve 
Stabilizing Synchronicity 
I seal the Matrix of Navigation 
With the Lunar tone of Challenge 
I am guided by the power of Universal Water 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

Sour Corn Rye

This rye contains corn meal, yogurt, vinegar, oil and honey in addition to the flours.  It tastes really quite good, although it had a bit of a vinegar aftertaste on the day of the bake.  In subsequent days it has matured into a less intense and more blended flavor.  It is still not as good as my uber loaf.

3 of Wands, Ace of Wands reversed, Knight of Cups reversed

I am starting to ponder the possibility of doing this string choir, it would seem that our district is the only one without strings.  I think it would be possible to use the rec hall facilities.  I am eager to rent a fiddle and start practicing.  

The rye project is coming along.  It would seem that I am comparing apples to oranges somewhat, since my uber loaf of brilliance has not a speck of whole wheat in it and really doesn't rise that nicely when it does.  But the flavor is what I am going for and I don't think the magnificent flavor is the result of a lack of whole wheat flour.  So today I am attempting the Peasant rye, which has molasses AND vinegar.  I am curious to taste it, the last rye which was mostly very delicious had a mixture of things but I was just a tad put off by the vinegar flavor.  We shall see.  

I am slightly stressed out by the daisy troop work, it has turned into rather a tad more group stuff than I had expected but hopefully once we get all of this initial processing and paperwork done the time can be more interestingly spent.

kin 196: Yellow Magnetic Warrior 
I Unify in order to Question 
Attracting Fearlessness 
I seal the Output of Intelligence 
With the Magnetic tone of Purpose 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

5 of Pentacles reversed, Knight of Wands reversed, Justice

Today is gearing up to push some buttons.  My intentions are being misunderstood all over the place, they must need some clarification.

Abbey ran off to Runner's Club, She is so big and yet still so little.  Her piano lessons are starting to get into the swing again, the practice chart is the key.

Little Ella is snuffled again, she had been up in the night and then she slept in after 10 yesterday so I knew something was up.  Not up last night, though, but not yet up this morning...



kin 195: Blue Cosmic Eagle 
I Endure in order to Create 
Transcending Mind 
I seal the Output of Vision 
With the Cosmic tone of Presence 
I am guided by the power of Self-generation 

10 of Swords reversed, 6 of Pentacles reversed, 5 of Cups reversed

Lots of talk of recovery and renewal.  The new bass strings are coming in the mail.  Grandma's rye turned out amazingly well yesterday, it is almost as if every few loafs she inhabits me in order to remind me how it is supposed to be.



kin 194: White Crystal Wizard 
I Dedicate in order to Enchant 
Universalizing Receptivity 
I seal the Output of Timelessness 
With the Crystal tone of Cooperation 
I am guided by the power of Death 

the Hanged Man, Death reversed, Page of Swords

I don't appreciate this work from home thing.  Especially to have it be one day a month, as if we don't have a thing worked out here that is our way to do stuff and doesn't need to be arbitrarily changed one day a month for what good reason?  Why?








kin 193: Red Spectral Skywalker 
I Dissolve in order to Explore 
Releasing Wakefullness 
I seal the Output of Space 
With the Spectral tone of Liberation 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

kin 180: Yellow Spectral Sun 
I Dissolve in order to Enlighten 
Releasing Life 
I seal the Matrix of Universal Fire 
With the Spectral tone of Liberation 
I am guided by my own power doubled 
I am a polar kin    I transport the Yellow galactic spectrum.

5 of Swords reversed, 10 of Wands reversed, Queen of Cups reversed

Watch out for the flu and drink your tea?  Thank you universe, for that sage advice.

I am going undercover into the land of the straits this afternoon.  I seem to be pulling off these undercover missions.  Or else folks are just getting used to my shenanigans...



kin 184: Yellow Lunar Seed 
I Polarize in order to Target 
Stabilizing Awareness 
I seal the Input of Flowering 
With the Lunar tone of Challenge 
I am guided by the power of Intelligence 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

8 of Pentacles reversed, 5 of Pentacles, the Star reversed

The reversed 8 of Pentacles is my strength, possibly what I bring to the party?  The 5 is the 2 of us muddling our way through and the reversed Star is confusing.  Virgin territory as it were.  She has been conspicuously absent given my line of work, but I also am not needy for her light, really at all.  At least not from the general masses.  Recognition from one's peers is always welcome.



kin 192: Yellow Planetary Human 
I Perfect in order to Influence 
Producing Wisdom 
I seal the Process of Free Will 
With the Planetary tone of Manifestation 
I am guided by the power of Universal Fire 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

4 of Wands, Justice reversed, the Chariot reversed

What a difference a week makes.  Today we are off to the folks to have a 70th birthday bash for ole Bud, and also to trade wampum for a pumpkin.  The wild west museum borders on racism but I think stays just on this side of it.  I have a fairly fine tuned aversion to such things and my bigot meter doesn't peg out.



kin 191: Blue Solar Monkey 
I Pulse in order to Play 
Realizing Illusion 
I seal the Process of Magic 
With the Solar tone of Intention 
I am guided by the power of Accomplishment 

Ace of Wands, 7 of Wands reversed, 4 of Swords

Tired of coughing, tired of listening to the coughing and it is only October.  Can we please not have 6 months of coughing?



kin 190: White Galactic Dog 
I Harmonize in order to Love 
Modeling Loyalty 
I seal the Process of Heart 
With the Galactic tone of Integrity 
I am guided by the power of Timelessness 

3 of Swords reversed, Knight of Swords, the Fool

Here's hoping that this reversed 3 is of heartbreak avoiding rather than heartbreak ignoring.  Positive reinforcement is my tool of choice today.  The Fool is also a friendly sight, oh to be prince Caspian, afloat upon the waves.



kin 189: Red Resonant Moon 
I Channel in order to Purify 
Inspiring Flow 
I seal the Process of Universal Water 
With the Resonant tone of Attunement 
I am guided by the power of Birth 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

Justice, Queen of Pentacles reversed, the Hanged Man reversed

I think I have most of my ingredients assembled for the rye bread chapter of recipes.  I made Grandma's rye with my fancy new flour and it is most certainly delicious.  These recipes will be sans carob powder, though, as I haven't found any for sale.  I did find a spice merchant who could get it for me...  perhaps.  

kin 188: Yellow Rhythmic Star 
I Organize in order to Beautify 
Balancing Art 
I seal the Store of Elegance 
With the Rhythmic tone of Equality 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

8 of Cups reversed, the World reversed, 5 of Swords

practicing is hard.



kin 187: Blue Overtone Hand 
I Empower in order to Know 
Commanding Healing 
I seal the Store of Accomplishment 
With the Overtone tone of Radiance 
I am guided by the power of Vision 

4 of Swords reversed, the Emperor reversed, the Hermit

Firstly, this trouble with Abbey being a little stinker head has another explanation in addition to her being a fairly emotionally normal 7 year old, she has also been having a mars square mars transit affecting her which, of course she's going to have a hard time controlling herself.  I am just glad to see that there are very extenuating circumstances coming to play and that we have hope that the transit will pass and leave her with a more complete knowledge of herself.

I have been aching for a couch to lie on for the past several days but I think I might have come through the other side even so.



kin 186: White Self-Existing World-Bridger 
I Define in order to Equalize 
Measuring Opportunity 
I seal the Store of Death 
With the Self-Existing tone of Form 
I am guided by the power of Spirit 

7 of Pentacles, 8 of Cups reversed, the Sun

Bootcamp time.  Abbey has an attitude problem.  She doesn't see anything wrong with shoving her sister to the ground, and not just once.  It has been a daily thing for a couple of days now.  She stomped her way to time out and shows no interest in learning the proper way to channel her aggression.  She is currently grounded from everything fun and that does not seem to be altering the attitude one bit either.



kin 185: Red Electric Serpent 
I Activate in order to Survive 
Bonding Instinct 
I seal the Store of Life Force 
With the Electric tone of Service 
I am guided by the power of Universal Water 
I am a polar kin    I establish the Red galactic spectrum.

5 of Swords reversed, 10 of Wands reversed, Queen of Cups reversed

Watch out for the flu and drink your tea?  Thank you universe, for that sage advice.

I am going undercover into the land of the straits this afternoon.  I seem to be pulling off these undercover missions.  Or else folks are just getting used to my shenanigans...



kin 184: Yellow Lunar Seed 
I Polarize in order to Target 
Stabilizing Awareness 
I seal the Input of Flowering 
With the Lunar tone of Challenge 
I am guided by the power of Intelligence 
I am a galactic activation portal    enter me.

8 of Swords reversed, Queen of Wands, 5 of Swords reversed

Alien abduction story:  It wasn't an abduction, more of a home visit.  I couldn't have been more than 4 or 5, although I think it was just after the train wreck, could have been before, the ole noggin is rather hazy on the specific details.  What I do remember is that mom and dad were fighting and Markie and I had to be sent off somewhere over night for them to work their deal out.  I remember many phone calls being made, I remember being sent to Betty's which was odd because we only ever went there during the day.  I had heard of some kids sleeping over before, though, it's just that we hadn't ever.  I remember being put to bed in the nap room and then being woken up and brought up into the attic to meet the beings.  They filled your heart and soul with love to be around them.  They tested me in some way but I knew that they loved me.  They did not touch me.  Then it was over and I think I failed but that is all that I remember.  It doesn't seem like much to write out but that feeling of pure love is what sticks with me to this day.  That and that I promised myself not to forget, I knew that people would not believe me, I don't even tell very many people about it.

Electric Moon day 19
Year of the Red Overtone Moon 



kin 183: Blue Magnetic Night 
I Unify in order to Dream 
Attracting Intuition 
I seal the Input of Abundance 
With the Magnetic tone of Purpose 
I am guided by my own power doubled 

3 of Cups reversed, Queen of Swords reversed, 7 of wands

Maiden Mother Crone
Maiden Mother Crone
Maiden Mother Crone

Preparation and rites of the dead were traditionally overseen by older women.

It's all making more sense now!





kin 182: White Cosmic Wind 
I Endure in order to Communicate 
Transcending Breath 
I seal the Input of Spirit 
With the Cosmic tone of Presence 
I am guided by the power of Death 

Page of Pentacles reversed, 3 of Pentacles reversed, 5 of Pentacles

The garbanzo bread turned out just OK.  I needed to do a better job on the bean smoosh, and it I think maybe it was the honey flavor that didn't seem to go.  Next time.  I am out of flour, currently, so I'm not baking anything else until I rectify that.  Grandma's rye is calling...

Practicing is still hard.



kin 181: Red Crystal Dragon 
I Dedicate in order to Nurture 
Universalizing Being 
I seal the Input of Birth 
With the Crystal tone of Cooperation 
I am guided by the power of Space 

Emperor reversed, Ace of Swords reversed, King of Cups reversed

Despite the dire warnings of lessons to be learned, today feels a little more like a good day than some of the past few have.  The garbanzo bread is not looking very good, I should have smooshed the beans rather than leaving them whole.  I didn't intend to leave them whole, but I thought that the mixing and kneading would be adequate for smooshing.  Alas.

Practicing is hard.



kin 180: Yellow Spectral Sun 
I Dissolve in order to Enlighten 
Releasing Life 
I seal the Matrix of Universal Fire 
With the Spectral tone of Liberation 
I am guided by my own power doubled 
I am a polar kin    I transport the Yellow galactic spectrum.

Empress reversed, High Priestess, Devil reversed

Baking day!  Today is sour dough again.  The last batch of molasses bread was the best yet.  Next up is garbanzo bread.

Abbey is doing an assignment this month where we plot the moon every day.  It is currently visible in the morning so we've been going out and checking it first thing.  I think it is fun.

It is one week and one day until Ella's first Daisy meeting.  EEEK



kin 179: Blue Planetary Storm 
I Perfect in order to Catalyse 
Producing Energy 
I seal the Matrix of Self-generation 
With the Planetary tone of Manifestation 
I am guided by the power of Accomplishment