Strength Reversed (Despotism, tyranny, abuse of power.  Sovereignty.  Kingdom, state, government, administration.  People, nation.  Weakness, helplessness, imperfection.  Anger, cruelty, discord.  Impatience.  Succumbing to temptation.)  Moon Reversed (Instability, variation, fluctuation.  Fluidity, dew, mist, rain.  Silence.  Inconstancy.  Irrational change.  Fantastic or visionary beliefs.  Slight blackmail.  Overcoming weakness or temptation.) 

I was supposed to meet J yesterday after my lesson at a party for one of his work people.  I was a little early I suppose but I sat at this place for an hour waiting for him to show up only to learn that he wasn't detained by work but rather by his decision to go to a different bar first before heading over to meet me.  Then once he showed up he was pissed at me for wanting to go get some dinner because he wanted to hang out at this party which I had already been at for an hour.  So I went to dinner by myself.  On friday night.  While my husband hung out at a bar with his work people who he sees all day every day.  Then we went to his parents house to pick up our children where he proceeded to spend his time with his dad down at the bar. 

Needless to say I am not feeling incredibly worthwhile or special in his life, I am not sure how my non drinking self even fits into his world anymore.